I – The Breakup
Jane ducked just as the ashtray brushed past her ear. A soft wind and whiff of ashes tingled her senses right when she heard it smash behind her, scattering itself and the contents to the wall behind her.
“GET OUT!” she yelled at the top of her voice.
“FINE!” Doug yelled back, now screaming in her face. He lunged forward, stopping his foot right before her, causing her to flinch aside.
“Just go,” she said again.
Doug turned away and stomped like a toddler up into the bedroom. Jane stood still, breathing rhythmically. She heard rustling around in the room above her head, but she just stood there in total silence. The stomping forced its way down the steps again.
Doug stood at the door and yelled, “If you touch ANYTHING of mine…”
“Just go. Get the rest of your crap later!”
The door slammed shut, and wasting no time, Jane rushed to the door to lock it. It occurred to her later that it didn’t matter. He still had a key.
Jane turned her back to the door and slide down to the floor, collapsing into tears. It took ten minutes to collect herself, then she stood up to examine the wall where the ashtray had smashed.
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Cindy set her book down and leaned back in the bathtub, soaking her head in the water, when the sound of the phone ringing echoed through the bathroom. She sat up quickly, drying off her hands with the nearby towel before looking down at the phone.
“Hi Jane,” she said.
“Cindy, I finally did it. I told that jerk to pack up and get out!”
“Did he hit you again?” her best friend asked.
“No. But I narrowly dodged a flying saucer. He threw his ashtray at me, shattering it against the wall. I’m scrubbing it down now.”
“Jane, do not let him back in there, even to get his things. At least not with someone there, like your dad or anyone else you know that can stand up to him.”
“I won’t. I am sick of being his punching bag,” she said.
“What was the fight over this time?” Cindy asked.
“I casually mentioned Jason’s name, and he burst out into a jealous rage.”
“Jason?” Cindy asked.
“You know, that new guy at work I am training for my old job before the promotion. The promotion and the fact I’m making more than Doug is what caused the last fight…now it’s over the guy I’m training. I don’t even think he’s available!”
“Well, whatever it takes to get that guy out of your life is worth it. You are better than him.”
Cindy paused before continuing, “Does he still have the keys?”
“Yes. I am hoping he won’t come back.”
“You should change your locks. My brother can help you with that. In the meantime, gather up everything of his and get it to him so he doesn’t have any reason to come back. If he does, don’t listen to any of his false promises of change.”
“I won’t listen,” she said. “I am done with him! But I am going to get off the phone now and pack up everything of his to put in a box near the front door.”
“You’re off work tomorrow, right? Let’s get outta town to do some shopping in Grove City.”
“Sounds good. Meet me over here and I’ll drive.”
Jane hung up the phone and went to the spare bedroom to grab a box. She darted between various rooms looking for anything Doug owned and filled the box with random clothes, a pack of cigarettes he left behind and a few ashtrays. Jane thought about throwing the ashes and all in the box, but had second thoughts, wanting to be the mature one. She meticulously cleaned the ashtray and placed it gently on the top of the box and placed it just inside the front door.
She paused, looking up at the door. Checking the lock, but also realizing that the one person she was afraid of coming in the door had keys. She stood there looking at the door like a puzzle and decided the best option was a barricade. She clumsily pushed the couch back over the old wooden floors until it was flush against the door. After admiring her barricading rearrangement. Satisfied, she went up to sleep off the fight.
Jane didn’t have a peaceful sleep. The whole fight and threats of violence kept her up. Each time she dipped into sleep, she saw the face of her tyrant lunging at her. She woke up and rubbed the phantom bruise of last week. It was gone now, but she remembered the pain.
“Don’t let him back in,” Cindy’s voice echoed in her mind.
Jane opened her tired eyes and rehearsed scenarios in her mind. Her daydreams emboldened her beyond what she could ever do in the presence of Doug. If she ever spoke to him in real life as she speaks to him in her fantasies, she might need to visit the doctor. But still she tried thinking of ways to keep him calm but still kick him out. Her restless night slowly dipped into sleep as her exhaustion overtook her racing mind. She dipped off to sleep and finally rested from the fights of the evening.